03 April 2009
it's april. by the end of the month... I'll either be really happy, or really bummed. or still waiting.
i'm talking about this, the english assistantship program in france.
i don't talk about it a lot, but it is always, always on my mind. there isn't a day since november that I haven't thought about it, dreamed about, and wished for it.
the nearer the date approaches for finding out, the more uneasy I feel.
But it's okay. If I don't get it, it doesn't mean I won't go back to France, it only means I'll have to take Route B or C or D. And trust me, regardless of the route, I am going to find myself in France again to continue where I left off last summer! It just may be later on instead of this year.
"waiting patiently" - can such a thing truly exist?